Transcendental Nirvana 3


Acceptance,

The universality of my choice,

A-make-believe reality called life.

Transcendental Meditation

Who Am I? Where do I come from? Source(miller-mccune.com)

My memories never cease to amaze me, of how they swarm in at the moments I expect them the least. Unexpected guests they are, but they start concurring your thoughts you hardly mind their invisible presence. A plaything of the sub conscious, the devil’s desire, the stub of all evolution; mental.

The back face – doppelganger, an alter ego, in its purest form. This alter ego, as it is, I wonder at times if its there for a reason,

Following me,

Stalking me,

Confusing me,

It makes me realize my drive, reinforces that point, that promise I made to myself. It reinstates that freedom that I have now, always existed in the school books. A something is should strive for, even though I understood it long back. It makes me realize that my reason is more important than the I. but ultimately when I stare at the blackness of the night sky, devoid of all those once glittering stars, I see nothing but nothing.

Feeling detached,

Feeling alleviated,

Feeling an existential crisis,

I always believed there is something about nothing. Otherwise why should we feel so calm when we look at nothing? Why do we fear nothing, if there really wasn’t anything? Isn’t it strange that we urge to merge into the nothingness, to let go this mundane, materialistic dream. May be an interview with this brand name Nothing can clear something.

Intoxicating,

Beautifying,

To think about nothing – how difficult is it?

My memories – this nothing. Sometimes it evolves into a mere egoistic dot in this certain timeline that I think I exist. Sometimes it makes a something of the nothingness in me. It can achieve something. It teaches me to pretend. Beyond all aspects it tells me not to be me. Nothing has something in it. But is the reverse true? Can something metamorphose into nothing? It tells me to do this exact thing. To keep your emotions to yourself.

 

 


About Dream Peddler

The author finds too many similarities with himself and the boy Calvin. Although a cold blooded techie, working with an Indian software MNC, the finer things of love and life fascinates him. Major portions of his work are about the things that inspires and pacifies. Politics and society too get a chance.


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3 thoughts on “Transcendental Nirvana

  • shgupta

    Hi Sauvik,

    Yeah, I also tried to break into nothingness by meditating, but I was too young and it all went wrong, terribly wrong. That is when I realized that to tame your mind, you first need to tame your body. I think the nothingness you are observing is out there. I searched mine within myself.

    Shruti

  • sauvik

    Hi shruti,

    i have always romanced, the nothingness of the night sky, maybe i never tried conventional meditation, but i just use to perceive something, matching patterns of life, staring at the darkness. and time comes when u just feel suddenly so calm, so detached from everything material.. with only solitude my solitude sitting beside me… and I love her…

    yep,Shruti taming ur mind is one of the most daunting tasks… to make it listen to your wisdom, to pet this sweaty thing isn’t a piece of cake…but the noting the evolution of this process is interesting…!

    To search this nothingness, its an eternal search.

    dream on
    sauvik

  • meditation

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